SET APART

Hey Mr Mystery Man,

How could I know all about you

And again know nothing.

How could I not want to speak to you

And again want to hear your voice.


Hey - you over there,

How could you be such a mystery

When I share the same pillow with you.

How could you be such a wonder

When I give you a daily massage.

How could you be -

And again I cannot get enough of you.

HOW TO LOVE

Dear God,

How hurt I feel -

How betrayed -

How could love be so conditional?

How could love hurt so badly?

Dear God,

Remove this spite from my thoughts

Remove this anger from my heart

Remove all negativity that drives -

Me from you.

Dear God,

How could I love like you

How could I turn a blind eye

How could love be unconditional

How could love be honest?

Dear God,

Remove the hurt - replace it with healing

Remove the pain - replace it with peace

Remove the borders - replace it with your word.

Dear God,

Do not depart me -

Just teach me how to love,

Amen.

Dear Lord... #1

Dear Lord,

I know I'm not worthy to come before you but nonetheless,

I know I have the authority to come before you -

Authority to tell you a few things -

That;

I love you. 
However, I am scared, scared of the things that you can do.
Scared of your power.

That;

I thank you and I can never feel as if I could thank you much.
Hence, I'm glad that you are not a man.
Man enough to ask, "...for what?"
So, I thank you, for everything - from the last I can remember to this moment (passing by).

That;

Jehovah,
Kindly forgive me.
I need you to forgive me and I write to you believing, trusting in you and your son.

Amen.

MY ALL-IN-ALL

Oh God,

How much of wonder you are,

A restorer - the all-in-all.

Oh God,

How much of love you are,

A giver - the one-stop-shop.

Oh God,

How much of strength you are,

A bouncer - the champ-beat-boxer.

Oh God,

How much of grace you have,

A sustainer - the all-in-all.

My all-in-all,

Thus, it's yes and amen.

💓

SUSPENSION OF DISBELIEF

As I popped
I felt my heart turn blue from the intoxication
As I cursed over and over
I watched myself senseless, intemperate.

As it took a toll
I felt relief
Not necessarily euphoric but-
A  smell of the the rain on concrete
and my synthetic pieces of flesh soak.

As my head took a spin
I felt the flow in my veins boil up,
Watched myself motionless-
Paranoid on the consequences but-
already immune, restrained.

As I paralyzed the soreness in my limbs
I felt more tensed but
Restrained my time,
Experienced relief,
I promised of my last and saved time itself.

As I wait to pop,
I remain paralyzed, immoderately but
Soothe from the curing waves of rhythm;
A touch of red in my heart.

MY LOVE; OUR LIFE

The little things

Just the little things...

The illusion of freedom

The control of chaos

The organised confusion

The kiss...

The little things

Just the little things...

The maintained sanity

The touch of love

The headlight in the tunnel

The thought...

The little things

Just the little things...

The rhythm to life...

IN HIS VOICE

I met a man

A man with a voice

A voice with life untold

A voice with scars that time only knew

Scars that time healed.

I met a man

Whose voice was music to my ears

Whose voice answered my worries

He met me each time by the bench

The place I'd go and hear the world.

In his voice
There was precedence

That, that need to be known
There was then

That, that gave faith
There was tomorrow
A life to be lived

A life with HIM

I met a man

A man with a voice

A voice with life

Life from around the world.

HANDSWORTH

I didn't know mere hands...
Delicate hands would touch me-
Awaken my heart
Kiss my soul
Suspend my mind...

That mere hands...
Would lock with mine-
Fill me with pleasure
Fill me with pain
Fill me with life...

That they would-
Grasp me like grains of sand
Not tightly though,
Just enough
Enough to not sift through the gaps.


I didn't know mere hands
Delicate hands would-
Exert so much pressure
Leave me to feel
Leave me to breath
Leave me to feel like breathing...

That mere hands-
Your delicate hands...
Would be so understanding...

MY OATH TO A STRANGER I

I can swear by the heavens

That I know him

Well I think I do…

I can swear by my dreams

That he once visited

Or the many times interrupted my thoughts

Making me believe in dejavu

I can swear by my dictionary,

Excitement-

Created a whole set of meaning

A fall of my breasts up and down

A swing of my waist

To unheard tunes of the past

To newly found rhythms

I can swear by my heart

That it indeed-

Plunged back to the deep sea

Back to the flames of doted lust

Back to the valley of the unknown

Yes I swear

And hereby oath

That I know him

Or do I?

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(to be continued)

LOSS OF INNOCENCE

A story was to be told
a story of a cocooned spirit and a green heart
a story of clean blood and untapped dreams
a story of the wonders of love.

And so a story was told
a story of a broken heart and torn spirit
a story of rushing blood and beautiful nightmares
a story of all kinds of love.

A story is still going to be told
a story of cants and dos
a story of wills and shants
a story of the only thing left, that matters: love.

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DEAR MR. LOVERMAN...

As I see you think
As I let you predict
Yes I do think you’re attractive..
Who wouldn’t? 

Pic Courtesy of Google

Physically...
Your hair
Your tattoos, the meanings
Your physique
Your walk
Your dress
Your eyes.
Your whole silhouette forms as I day-dream.

 
Spiritually...
I appreciate, admire
Respect that you at the least believe
Adore something like I do
A- many- supreme beings?
Something to give you peace of mind
Something to put you to calm
Something to control your fire as it gets outta hand I guess
But my dear love,
I also find it as a future issue
One way or the other
But we'll cross the bridge-
I dearly hope.

Intellectually...
A stir you've caused
It's great to know-
Awake is my faint-mind
Challenged
In a good way though.
Turns a page,
Flips another,
Listens to the commotion of day
Thinks.
Oh dear Mind- It's bedtime can we rest
Thinks.

Miscellenously...
Well my heart has spoken
I - can’t say ‘m being rebellious
I - don't understand
I - loves obedience...
But you Mr. Loverman,
You have caused a stir
A free spirit I am to become
I saw it as I let you predict...

But bear in mind Mr. Loverman,
There is a lot you'll learn too,
A lot before you strip me bare
A lot you’ll get to know
A lot before you worship me too
A lot to dump
A lot to nurture...

Xoxo,
Yours in Body, Mind and Spirit.

SEWN HEART FELT

I've dug my grave

Got too far deep

Too close to the core of my heart

Too far from the surface of clarity. 

I've dug my grave

Drained all revival springs

I'm almost out of suppl

Too close to heartiness.

Too close to foolishness.

I've dug my grave.

I've fallen again.

Swept away from the existance of one

Now my thoughts are accomodating a second.

Pic Courtesy of Google

 

I'm digging my grave. 

Searching for-

beckoning from dear wisdom

It seems mind is asleep

 and heart has thrown itself to the ground to play...

 

Can this be rekindled love...

My sewn heart feeling again...